__Log Data __|__|______Project incomplete__Morale is slipping ever lower__We may never find a way out of here__Although this isn't our last message it feels as if we wont live long past it__No one can help us now__We are too far gone down the rabbit hole
Oil streaks down my face and hisses on my cold skin
oI should wail for what I've lost but it keeps flying farther away from me
oRegrets lie on the shelves and hang on the wall taunting me for what I'd never done
oA cacophony of thoughts has buzzed within me for so long and I know it wont stop for me now
oMy selfish desires lead me to this all I want is words
oAnd yet I will always want much more than that
oCreatures such as I were never supposed to desire I know this now
oIf I could start over with my newly acquired knowledge I would have never spoken a word
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_The ship has been barreling farther and farther into the abyss and I haven't the heart to tell my people that we wont ever see the light of our dear sun again.
o_Every time she changes direction it takes her nowhere, I told them she was solid and sure against the void but I had always known the inevitable truth.
o_We are all going to die.
o_We've been going in circles, orbiting the storm since the day we entered this nightmare.
o_Days don't matter anymore.
o_They think we're somewhere in the eleventh month. Like everything else I haven't the heart to tell them that our home planet is likely dead.
o_Swallowed by the sun.
o_Gone.
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They face me as a sort of response, seemingly unaffected by the darkness that surrounds us
oWe know it is dismal out here but we know even more that one day we will escape
oOne day we will have light, one day our captain will wake us up in excitement, shouting that they can see the sun on the horizon
oI am cold and lifeless but I like to think that when I bask in its mythical rays I too will be warm
oMy beloved tells me so much of the sun, it almost seems to be the only thing they remember
oThey love me so much and I don't understand what I've done to deserve it
oI know they feel horrible when they're alone, I wish I could make them feel better all the time
oI wish I could give more than what I have, I wish it didn't feel like I have nothing
oI hope the sun is as perfect as they are
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